Post by The Seunger on Jan 26, 2014 2:43:16 GMT
So... starting with how I re-applied to this team... I only did so after my previous team, Crystal-Argo was disbanded due to some argument. When I re-applied to Outlaws, I was happy to be back as someone you'd know after leaving for... 3 months before I came back? And it's been almost 2 months I've spent time being with all of you in Outlaws... but seeing how I'm ignored 95% of the time, I feel like I'm not fit to be part of the team at all. And even if I tried, I would still be ignored.
Why be part of the team if no one pays no mind to you? This is what I'm getting at. And before Girth say anything about me being delusional or some other crap, all I'm saying is that being part of this team gives me some time to think about whether I should officially stay here or not. I searched up some other active English teams I could find, listed them in my notebook and see if I could apply to one of the Team Masters of their team.
It pains me to say all this, but I feel "useless".
I'm TRYING to enjoy this game with you guys, but it's kind of hard to when people already have others to be with and I'm almost the only one out of it. I mean, you're all familiar with the people who get on TeamSpeak more, getting on more, and talk more. As for me, I don't meet all those expectations, except for being active and looking for things to do.
So, this is what I think: dropping out of this team and find another that has people that treat others equally, with equal attention. This team doesn't meet my expectation, so fuck you guys. (But not that what words mean anything to you guys anyways.)
Ade's positive feedback alone wasn't enough for me to enjoy being part of this team. (Sorry Ade, as much I want to stay permanently, I NEED some sort of motivation from people, NOT being ignored.)
In short, if no one hates reading so long... I've been play with my old friends (whom I apologized to after the disbandment of Crystal-Argo) and started to play with them more. Seeing how I'm playing with my old friends again mean... why the fuck am I still part of this team?! Means I'm totally not doing anything part of the team itself.
... In all seriousness, I don't know why do I even bother writing up all this crap.
I just want to enjoy the game with others. I don't even need a team in the first place. It's just there for convenience, to prevent loneliness, and build motivation with others. I know some of you see it as part of Outlaws, but as for me... I clearly can't see it from the way I'm seeing right now.
What would become of Dave, Andrew and my sister... only my sister dares following me around, but as for the other two, Andrew plans on leaving anyways. Dave, that's up to him to decide whether he should stay or not. But all I know is that when I left Outlaws to form Crystal-Argo, he followed. When I disbanded Crystal-Argo back to Outlaws, he still followed. So there's no chance of him staying when I'm not in the same team.
So... yeah. Sorry for the inconvenience, but I'm gonna pack up my shit and leave this team once I've found one to reside in.
A note for Girth:
When you say things such as "Why be part of the team if you're not gonna game with us" tells me it's more of a demand for me (or Dave) to leave the team. And well... this is what happened when I left Outlaws for the first time. I held that thought in mind, left after my friend had returned to play PSO2 and formed Crystal-Argo. But hearing this from you again... now I'm not so sure of staying in Outlaws anymore. Whether you cared about me being part of the team or not, I'm still leaning on leaving. Unless you have a reason for me to stay, that's great and I might stay. But if I fail to see your reasoning, I may not join back Outlaws at all after my second departure. Because I'm kind of sick of being left out.
In short, watch what you say or you'll get undesired consequences.
Why be part of the team if no one pays no mind to you? This is what I'm getting at. And before Girth say anything about me being delusional or some other crap, all I'm saying is that being part of this team gives me some time to think about whether I should officially stay here or not. I searched up some other active English teams I could find, listed them in my notebook and see if I could apply to one of the Team Masters of their team.
It pains me to say all this, but I feel "useless".
I'm TRYING to enjoy this game with you guys, but it's kind of hard to when people already have others to be with and I'm almost the only one out of it. I mean, you're all familiar with the people who get on TeamSpeak more, getting on more, and talk more. As for me, I don't meet all those expectations, except for being active and looking for things to do.
So, this is what I think: dropping out of this team and find another that has people that treat others equally, with equal attention. This team doesn't meet my expectation, so fuck you guys. (But not that what words mean anything to you guys anyways.)
Ade's positive feedback alone wasn't enough for me to enjoy being part of this team. (Sorry Ade, as much I want to stay permanently, I NEED some sort of motivation from people, NOT being ignored.)
In short, if no one hates reading so long... I've been play with my old friends (whom I apologized to after the disbandment of Crystal-Argo) and started to play with them more. Seeing how I'm playing with my old friends again mean... why the fuck am I still part of this team?! Means I'm totally not doing anything part of the team itself.
... In all seriousness, I don't know why do I even bother writing up all this crap.
I just want to enjoy the game with others. I don't even need a team in the first place. It's just there for convenience, to prevent loneliness, and build motivation with others. I know some of you see it as part of Outlaws, but as for me... I clearly can't see it from the way I'm seeing right now.
What would become of Dave, Andrew and my sister... only my sister dares following me around, but as for the other two, Andrew plans on leaving anyways. Dave, that's up to him to decide whether he should stay or not. But all I know is that when I left Outlaws to form Crystal-Argo, he followed. When I disbanded Crystal-Argo back to Outlaws, he still followed. So there's no chance of him staying when I'm not in the same team.
So... yeah. Sorry for the inconvenience, but I'm gonna pack up my shit and leave this team once I've found one to reside in.
A note for Girth:
When you say things such as "Why be part of the team if you're not gonna game with us" tells me it's more of a demand for me (or Dave) to leave the team. And well... this is what happened when I left Outlaws for the first time. I held that thought in mind, left after my friend had returned to play PSO2 and formed Crystal-Argo. But hearing this from you again... now I'm not so sure of staying in Outlaws anymore. Whether you cared about me being part of the team or not, I'm still leaning on leaving. Unless you have a reason for me to stay, that's great and I might stay. But if I fail to see your reasoning, I may not join back Outlaws at all after my second departure. Because I'm kind of sick of being left out.
In short, watch what you say or you'll get undesired consequences.
